It’s been a while since I last posted on here. I guess you could say a lot has happened since. Actually, in reality, I don’t think a lot has happened it just seems like a lot.
But I finished my dissertation, it ended up being around 209 pages and just over 35,000 words. Looking back at through the old drafts to the final one that I’d handed in, I could see how it had changed and how much my writing had improved. It’s actually really nice to look at.
So, for more context on what my dissertation actually was, it was an opening to a novel, which I started around this time last year. Basically it’s about a town that gets stuck in time by a scientist, but this is something that is played off to be normal, until Lena witnesses some unusual events in the town and her eyes are opened that the perfect little town that she lives in, isn’t as perfect as she had originally thought.
There is more to it than that but I feel like if I start explaining it all then I’ll end up waffling on about my weird plot lines.
But I’d spent about a year planning a novel, writing the overview for each chapter until about chapter seven, I think it was any way it was around that time. And then I ended up losing all them plans and I feel like I cried a little at the time, because I’d spent ages writing something just to lose it. I’m sure I made backups somewhere I just couldn’t remember where I saved them. So, if you make plans for a novel, remember to save it somewhere you will remember and also back it up somewhere, otherwise, you’ll be said like me.
With that aside it was a really enjoyable process, I enjoyed writing my dissertation even when sometimes I cried at it and shredded certain pages because it didn’t fit or didn’t sound right. But when I finished the final draft that I was going to hand in, I was incredibly proud of the writing that I’d produced – that said, give it a few months and I probably won’t like what I’ve written, hence why I’m avoiding reading it for a bit.
But I got my grade back! I got a 2:1 which I was kind of surprised about, where I was proud of what I’d written but I wasn’t sure if my tutors would like it, because I’d put so much effort into writing it and I was genuinely really proud of it. I was so happy with the mark because it meant that they also liked it and that was all I really wanted.
With that said, I looked at the grade but didn’t look at the feedback from the marker and the second marker. It sounds stupid but at the time just seeing the grade that I’d been given was enough, I also didn’t want to see what they had to say about it just yet – like I said I’d spent so long writing this I was kinda scared of what peoples reaction it would be.
But the other day I was in Leicester visiting Dan and I realized how much I missed writing, my friends from back home were sharing their accomplishments with their writing too and I didn’t really have anything new to show them just the project that I’d spent so long writing and I missed it. At this point, I hadn’t written anything creative in about a month, and it made me want to write. At the time I wasn’t sure if I wanted to continue the dissertation project or if I wanted to start something new, mainly because I’d been writing my dissertation for a while and didn’t want to end up hating it.
So, I was contemplating writing some poetry or attempting to anyway and decided when I got home I decided to read the feedback that my tutors had written and it seemed really positive, one of them said ‘I think this is genuinely an exciting project to keep working on for the MA and beyond’ the MA being the creative writing masters that my uni now does (and what I’m doing next year!!) and that one comment really stood out to me and made me feel like I’m actually good at something and it as really nice. It might sound strange but it was lovely to read that they liked what I’d written and basically boosted my confidence as a writer.
So, now I’ve started to continue that project and hopefully soon I can have a finished first draft of the complete thing.
I also want to try and write a video game script, in the coming year too. I’ve been researching them a lot and they seem like they’d be a lot of fun to write. I’m not really sure how to write one yet… but it is going to be fun learning 😛